This week in English we read part of Walden to learn about transcendental ideas. The quote I found interesting is “What sort of space is that which separates a man from his fellows and makes him solitary? I have found no exertion of the legs can bring two minds much nearer to one another”. I think the main idea of this quote is the loneliness of mankind. It is asking why in a world full of so many people why do we still feel lonely. I think part of this is because we have a fake truth of reality. When we were little in every movie we watched no one ever ended up alone even the less fortunate had a happy ending. For example in Cinderella Cinderella is a maid and although her life isn't perfect she gets the prince in the end. I think this makes everyone think they need a significant other to not feel alone. Especially in high school you notice that some people date any person they possible can. Eventually you notice that there's probably no way he or she had a crush on that many people they just didn't like the thought of being alone . When in fact they may not have been alone all the time because maybe they were surrounded by great people but were too caught up in the thought of love to realize.Another way to go about this is realizing how be mentally lonely is different then physically lonely. For example if someone is the only person sitting at a lunch table they are alone at that table. They are physically alone. An example of being mentally alone is when you feel like no one understand you or you have no one that will always be there for you. This is very relevant to my life because last year that was a lot of illness in my family last year and I felt as though no one really understood what I was going through. I would be in a room full of people and would feel like I was the only person there. However looking back I have noticed that I chose to be alone. I think that many of us feel alone because we choose to we may not realize it but if you're not trying engage with others you're gonna feel lonely either physically, mentally or both. I realized it this weekend when I was at a youth convention with my youth group because I recently switched youth groups and my new group is very good at being a community so most of my loneliness has gone away. When the speaker was talking he said “ you need to seek community” this stood out to me because it made me realize you have to put effort into not being lonely. For example I chose to seek a new youth group and engage myself with them and my loneliness has decreases immensely. Digging into this quote I have realized most of the time were lonely because we choose to be.
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This week I have been thinking about how most people try to do things by themselves. I feel like the whole world is too consumed on trying to look strong and trying to be independent that no one realizes the power of letting other people help them. I think it’s unhealthy to try and do everything on own.
One thing I think people need to realize is when you're struggling with something mentally it's ok to talk to people or ask for help. For example last year three people in my family had cancer and it was really hard. For awhile I held all my fear and hurt in and tried to present myself as strong to society however inside I was scared for my family. I never really knew the power of letting people help me mentally I usually would just put on a smile and would focus on other people. during the summer of 2014 while I was at camp one of the letters I received from my grandma had a message in it about my grandpa not feeling well. I mentioned it to one of my counselors figuring it was just his normal heart stuff so I wasn't too concerned because his heart is always a problem. The day I came home from camp we had to rush to the hospital to see him so then I was very concerned. My grandpa was very sick for most of the summer so l would text my family group leader from camp Matt every once in awhile and update him. The night we found out my grandpa had cancer and that it was spreading very quickly I texted Matt and told him and his response was how far away do you live gabby; my other counselor, Shawn; his wife and I want to come see you and talk to you is it ok if we come tonight? It was very late and things were chaotic and at my grandmas so we decided to plan to meet up on the following Tuesday. That Monday my grandpa passed away even though my grandpa wasn’t here anymore Matt, Shawn and Gabby still came tuesday and we talked and hung out outside for two to three hours. After they left I realized the power of letting people help you because if i wouldn't have told them what was going on they wouldn't have known I needed help. I always realized how amazing some people are at helping people, I didn't expect them to come out and see me and they did .Although the day was dreary with the whole family mourning those twos hours were very joyous and happy. Just being able to talk through things and laugh about things that happened at camp meant a lot because it was a chance for me to clear my mind. Sometimes admitting you're struggling and and asking for help can change your life like it did mine. This week I have been thinking about music. Every night while I do my homework or clean my room I listen to music and I have been realizing that my song choice depends on my mood. I also have noticed that I choose the song based off the lyrics.
If I’m feeling really motivated I tend to listen to music that talks about fighting something in your life or about battling to be the best you can be. For example when I’m motivated to do my best in something I find myself listening to Hall of Fame by Script. The lyrics to hall of fame talk about how someday you could be in the hall of fame and burn bright in the world. My favorite part of the lyrics are “You can be a master , don't wait for luck, dedicate yourself and you can find yourself". These are my favorite lyrics because they state that if you put your mind to it you can achieve anything and will learn things about yourself through your journey. When I listen to this song it motivates me to get my work done. When I’m in a happy mood I tend to listen to more upbeat songs and songs that don’t have a very deep meaning. For example when I’m in a good mood I normally just listen to radio stations like cfx because they tend to play very hype songs with a very strong beat. These tend to be songs that are made to be radio hits. Normally when an artist releases the first single for their album they usually choose the catchiest one with the most upbeat vibe. They release that type of song because they want to release what the radio wants to hear. The more play a song has on the radio the more likely someone will buy the album because their first impression of the album was good . When I’m in a calm mood I tend to listen to slower songs where the voice is softer. For example one of my favourite songs to listen to when I’m in a calm relaxed mood is "Photograph" by Ed Sheeran. I think the reason I find myself listening to this song a lot is because it has a acoustic guitar sound which I find very relaxing. I also think I choose to listen to it because the lyrics are very soft and heartwarming. My favorite lyrics in photograph are “we keep this love in a photograph we made these memories for ourselves ,where our eyes are never closing” because it makes me think about all the good memories we have of our childhoods and all the fun things we experienced in life. Some days i’m in a mood where I’m gloomy and miss people who used to be a part of my life. One of the songs I listen to alot when I miss people is When I See You Again by Wiz Khalifa. My favorite lyrics in "When I See you again " are" it's been a long day without you, my friend And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again “ because my grandpa passed away the beginning of freshman year so it gives me hope that I will see him again someday and be able to share my high school experiences with him. Overall the music I listen to is a reflection of how I feel . |
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